Death is imminent....how we go...only Allah knows....

I missed my Grandma....she has passed for nearly a decade now...but I still can remember her face and her voice....I loved her very much when she was still around and will run to her whenever I need a place to run from whatever I need to run from in those days. I still dream of her and when I woke up...I will always felt this pain on my chest from crying in my dream....

For no apparent reason....from last week the subject revolving around death seems intriguing....I found myself looking up for ghostly apparitions...real ghost haunting..after death communications...angels and reincarnations...from the internet....and I even dreamt about standing infront of my Grandma & Grandpa's grave...

They said dreams are just 'mainan masa tido'...but people sharing their stories in the internet are darn serious about their dreams. I found that many people accross the earth has had dreams like mine...that means I am not out of my mind yet...hahaha....

Anyway...once...years ago....I dreamt (what could be bits and pieces memories from my former life) that I was living in an era where I wore long gown that puffed out from the waist down...like those in the 17th century....walking around what could be the castle ground with high grey stone wall on a bright sunny blue sky day...holding a parasol as i went...I had blond hair then...and feeling really happy...then suddenly...my dream turned tragic as suddenly I found myself in some kind of war...hiding in what could be the castle tower holding a sword for protection...feeling very afraid for my life....and then a bunch of men wearing some kind of metal suit came crushing thru the door towards me...I tried to fight them off with my sword and I cried so hard...and then as sudden as it came...I was back to reality....with tears still flowing down my eyes...I thought...what was that all about and what was I doing dressed up in that kind of gown...did I die at the hands of those men that day...and what baffled me the most up till now is why do I have blond hair in that dream...I never tell this dream to anyone for fear being ridiculed and after some time....it slipped from my mind until I read about reincarnation and recollection of memories from previous life of other people...then it all came back to me...my former religion do not believe in reincarnation...nor do the current religion that I now embrace...both said when you are dead...that is that...all your deeds while you are alive will be counted  and you will be judged at the judgement day. Not that I question my religion...but that is the kind of things that make you stop and think if it is even possible...hmmm....

I hope Allah will give me enough time and the chance to raise my son according to the teaching of my religion ...to be a fine young man...fulfill my obligations...and do enough good deeds...before I am called to meet my maker....Amin...

Al Kisah Kek.....

Di suatu pagi yang membosankan....tetiba bila masuk yahoo...ada pulak feed pasal Red Velvet Cake...lepas tu gatal tangan la nak google resipi kek tu....sebab malas nak tengok banyak-banyak versi kek tu...aku pick je the resipi the 1st on the list....hahaha...hah! Aku dah ada projek baru...tengahari tu ajak la kaki gi carik bahan kek....hehehehe....the next day ada member tanya mana keknye...aku tak plan pun nak buat malam tu jgak...ingat buat wiken...tapi dah member tanya gitu...berkobar balik la pulak semangat nak buat...so petang tu projek bermula.... Kertas resipi di depan mata dan ikut betul-betul arahan resipi....heee.....alhamdulillah...kek siap....tapi kureng naik daripada paras yang aku jangka....rasa pun ntah macam mana....next buat frostingnya...kah kah kah...dalam ikut resipi tu tak menjadi jugak....tercair...so tak jadi nak bawak kek ke ofis pagi next day sebab frosting takde....lunch hari tu gi carik bahan frosting lagi skali....kali ni guna whip cream jenis lain....petang tu balik terus buat....huhuhu...menjadi kali ni....pastu...aku amik kek tu & belah 2...pastu sapu frosting....waaah...syiok plak sapu-sapu frosting tu...macam pro pulak...ahaksss.....owh...tadi ada rasa sikit keknya...agak kepahitan kat hujung lidah....other than that...& sifatnya yang tak mengembang banyak...boleh tahan jugak rasanya....mana pulak silapnya...anyway...aku bawak jugak ke ofis....awal-awal aku bagi amaran ada rasa kepahitan sikit....pelik pulak bila ada kata takde rasa pahit ada kata ada sikit....anyways...kejap je abis....hehehe....selamat kek aku tu hahaha...alhamdulillah...semua selamat selepas makan kek aku tu....hahahaha...next time aku rasa kene kurangkan kaler or maybe serbuk koko dia tu kut....ni gambar kek tu.....